My cat ate my Moms Budgie

Today it rained in my favor, I know it sucked for the 1000's of Manitobans that hit the ditch and each other and the ground because of the ice, but for me, for today, I needed it. I called into work and said I didnt' want to try driving on this, and that was ok with the boss, so I promtly put myself back to bed and slept soundly till noon, and had a dream about all my Australian friends coming to visit me here.

This weekend was my big family gathering weekend, which was sweet. I really love my extended family, on both sides. This was my Barkman side. I did lots of chatting with my uncles and aunts about "my decision-making" which made me look at a few new angles of it all; but all in all made my decision that much heavier, so just when I thought I knew what I was gonna do, Im back to square 2. I still have a few days left to think about it, but how much thinking about something can you do? I want the job, no question there, I'd love the job. I know that. I'd also already convinced myself that being a city girl would be alright. I love the idea of being closer to more of my friends. So what is my problem you ask?

A. Taxes.

B. My future dreams.

These were the 2 things that were brought up this weekend. My uncles and aunts know me well. and the first thing that my uncle asked me when I mentioned that I was thinking about coming to the city was.

"What about Australia?"

I think everyone who knows me really well.. knows how badly I want to go back. Theres a small possibility that somehow it could still happen if I were a nanny... but it just seems quite unlikely, and that scares me, cuz its important to me. did I ever mention that I've thought about just up and moving there..being an aupair..

Moving across the world seems less scary to me then moving to Winnipeg.. funny how that works. Ignorance is pure bliss thats all I can say.

Then we were talking about going back to school.

What do I want to do when I grow up?

I wanna be a flight attendant, preferbly on West Jet. Then I can fly all the time, and work in the place I love the most. Which is the sky.

or a Photographer.

Moving to the city to be a nanny, although Im sure I would actually love it, is a big commitment, and commitments are not a bad thing, but it would make me a "settled down" person, cuz I wouldn't be able to up and do things like I could right now.Cuz after making all my payments I probably wouldn't have much left, and then where are you getting to? Buying a car made me partly a settled down person, cuz it limited how much of my paycheck i could actually save. But it doesn't stop me completly, it slows me down but doesnt stop me. People always tell me.."Do things while you can, while your young, while your single" the last one I hear alot.. "its ok to be single, you can do so much." and I want to do things, I want to make the most of these first years outta highschool, cuz its where Im gonna some of my biggest lifelong memories. So sometimes having a job that I dont love all that much.. seems to be an ok sacrafice cuz my boss is good about letting me go to camp and travel.

But like I was telling my mom earlier today.."I really want this nanny job"

ahh Im in such a pickle I just dont even know what to do. I could talk it in circles for ages. So i'll talk about something else now. Like this weekend.. heres some pictures:

Bloody Knuckles, is what I call this game now. See how small this air hockey table is? Do you think I can stay on my side of the red line. AH NO, I jam and hack until I score.. the result?

a very sore bruised and bleeding and hurting so much I can't even straighten it out hand. that sore may look small but it bled like a sucker

It even made playing Dutch Blitz a lil hard. My auntie Bonnie is Queen of this game.

Theres a rule of NO DIVING..which sucked.. so instead we "Jumped Creativly" On the left is Christy, my syncronized jumping partner, and Im on the right. we don't look very syncronized in this picture, but she did do the splits too, and then we came together for a pencil dive. 2012 Olympics here we come!

We played lots of Rock Band too.

Cross Country Skiing down onto the lake was one of the biggest hits of the weekend. The mojority of the family had never gone CCskiing before and out of the 15 or so of us that went at least 13 of us had wicked wipeouts. Good times though, and how cool is it that the same lake that we can ski on in summer, we can also ski on in winter. I wasn't able to get over this frozen wave so I said that I was just gonna lay there until spring when the water melts and swim in.

2010 Olympics here I come!