My name is Sheila, and Im here to save your life.

"Call 911, we need an Ambulance, and come right back!"
"Man are you ok? Can you hear me?"
"1and2and3and4and5and6and7and8and9and10and11and12and13..."
"Stand clear of patient. All clear!"
"Shock administered"
"Im sorry that you have a pen stuck right through your elbow, Im going to bandage it up and get you to a hospital so that they can remove it"
"First Im gonna wrap up your stump and then I'll pick your hand up off the ground.."
"How are babies supposed to tell you that they are ok? why do you even ask them if they are ok? obviously they are not!"
"Chris Walby Im gonna have to get you to kneel down because you are too huge for me to do the heimlach on you."

So if you haven't figured already, I was at a CPR/First Aid course today, and I super aced my test, so Im feeling quite qualified now to save an adult, child and infants life. Twas a good time, pretty long, but our instructer was really fun, and unlike most of the time, I caught onto everything pretty fast, even how to do all them finicky bandages. I almost wish I could do CPR on someone now just for the sake of being able to put what I learnt into practice. But I would never wish upon somebody to almost die. We learnt alot today, and covered so many things, most of which was all really interesting, we covered CPR(adults,children,infants), burns, pple who are impaled, cuts, strokes, heart attacks, choking (adults, children,infants), unconscious and conscious, drowning, etc. Interesting Fact of the day: 60% of the stress you carry around isn't even yours to carry. So after working at daycare for 2 years-ish. I finally now know what I was supposed to have known within the first 3 months. yippee. Oh and i still have my dummies lungs lol

OH and I figure maybe I should let AlL of you know... Australia's not gonna happen this year, so its gonna be a white Christmas for this girl. Hopefully God will bless the idea sooner then later, and if it just isnt' meant to be, then He'll open a different window, as there are still other places in the world I'd like to see. Its just I have a bunch of friends there, and in 10 years we'll all be in different "places" in our lives or we'll have totally lost touch, they often ask when Im coming back and I can't wait to be able to tell them, hey guess what, Im on my way... we'll see if we can't do something big for '09.
This is how I'd ideally think about travelling these next couple years... cuz its something thats started already.. 2007-Australia, 2008-Banff, Calgary Edmonton, 2009-Big trip(Australia, Carribean??). 2010-little trip (Vancouver, Niagara Falls..).... by little trip I mean something thats cheaper within Canada. Of course this is how I view it now, but we all know it will probably become near impossible, cuz life is life, and money don't grow on trees. But for now.. I like to dream big.

Good Weekends go into Good Days

Today was a good day! I had an opener shift (6:45-2:15) which is probably my favorite shift, once I get out of bed, and have actually woken up fully which doesn't happen until around 10 lol. I only had 4 two year olds in my group today, which was amazing, I figured that even if they were as bad as could be It would still be a much easier day cuz there was only 4 of them. My sanity stayed intact ALL day, it was so nice having a small group like that cuz I felt like I could actually care for them more individually. Twas a good time, put me in a good mood that for sure. After work I went and hung out with my cool sister, we did our nails and had tea and sugar popcorn, it was lovely girl time. Then I went home had supper, did some dishes, then I called up my sweet Aussies.. First I talked to Nanda which was very nice cuz it had been quite a few monthes since I had a good talk with her, then I called up Luke, who I havent talked to AT all since leaving Cooma, so its been just over a year, he remembered who I was and everything lol. So that was really awesome. Now I have there addresses so I can send them Christmas Cards. FYI. its super hot down there right now as they are just nicely enjoying there summer. not fair man, i told them i'd send some snow there way.
Calgary won.. twas sweet. I finished every last bit of Christmas shopping this weekend. WHooo! now i have this big pile of stuff on my floor that i need to wrap up. Im super excited about Christmas now though. Bring it!

My 3 Favorites

The Mountains

Palm Trees

The Ocean

Sweet Friday

Today was a sweet Friday.. after abit of a rough week, I finally sailed through one day smoothly. I didnt' lose my cool once, of course it helped that I had an early shift.. 6:45am! but 8 hours later puts you just past 2 and I still had the rest of the day to enjoy. So I came home watched tv, had a nap which is really weird for me, but I got a big headache, and was really tired. I wonder if it had anything to do with my flu shot from yesterday which was the big event of the week, mostly cuz I contemplated it for so long and still didnt' know if I was gonna get one until I drove by the clinic and was like Im just gonna do it. See the thing is that everyone was freakin me out saying that they got super sick from it etc.. but once I got to the clinic they all said nothing major would happen to me so I got it. I really hate needles but this one wasn't to bad, haven't had one since grade 9. My arm really hurt afterwards, but so far so good..Im gonna be right ticked if I do get some weird illness this weekend, cuz I've got too much riding on this weekend, I plan to get all my Christmas shopping DONE. plus some grey cup partying (GO CALGARY!!!!!!), plus some sitting in a docs office, plus a bunch of driving, but it'll all being worth it cuz Im gonna see my bestest buds. Should be a good time in Winnipeg!

TODAY WAS CRAZY

T-tiresome
O-out of control
D-disaray
A-attitudes.. big attitudes
Y-yelling?

W-worry
A-aggravating
S- soothers

C-crying.. so much crying
R-rowdy
A-a,b,c,d,e,f,g,h,i,j,k..................now i know my abc's next time wont you sing with me
Z-zealous
Y-yikes


the cutest thing today?
i made a ninja turtle costume for a lil guy.. fireman helmet for his shell, baby blanket rolled up and crisscrossed for his 6pac abs. a paper mask with pipecleaners, more rolled up blankets for his leg protecters, big plastic spoons for his swords.... im not gonna lie he was a pretty cute site. We called him BlUe LiGhTnInG

A step forward, that is IF anything comes of it

So the last couple days I've been thinking more about my 3rd option or whatever number it was.. going to Australia just for a few weeks, Mom was telling me she was concerned about my job, and how my boss would take it cuz it always seems like im always jumping in and out of work, so I figured the fair thing to do would be to at least warn my boss that IM THINKING of jumping to the other side of the world for December, I tried quite hard to emphasize that nothings happened with it so far, that im still just THINKING about it. but at least now she had a heads up, cuz if I get a plane ticket for a reasonable price, dude Im so outta this snow covered country. but its very much up to The Big Guy UPstairs, I kinda figure if the price is right then God's blessing it, but if its simply to much, then I'll just sigh and do my best to move on with life for the time being. I have a place to stay out there, in my head its half figured out already, its just gonna come down to the price, and a few phonecalls. On the reverse side of all my dreamin... Im really scared to go back, cuz Im scared that its gonna suck cuz I have such high expecations cuz the first time around it was like a movie, it went so good, it was the best 89 days of my life.. so we shall see. thats all i can do is just wait and see.. on a side note though my boss wants to know asap! cuz if i go then our new girl can start a month earlier, but she still has to be able to give her 2 weeks... and im thinking this whole idea is gonna come right down to the kincher.. i can totally see myself buying tickets, packing and leaving in a matter of a week type deal. but we shall see. right now my travel agent auntie is in Portugal for a week, so I have to wait till she comes home again... So we shall see folks! where this girlie's gonna spend Christmas, is it gonna be a white one, or a white sand and sparkling ocean one... theres a thought and a half

Pondering, Thinking, Wondering, Questioning

Im missing Australia.... and my roo friends...and the October tan

Proud of My Babies... But was it Monday today or what?!

Today was picture day at daycare...the lil bright spot in my day was the time I spent with the babies in the morning.. I got to hold them still and try to get them to smile when it was there turn to get their pictures taken, and everyone of them did so good, I think there moms will be really happy when they see these babes pics. I was so proud of how they weren't totally petrified of the photographer and all the stuff, and they each gave a lil smile, which is better then some of the older kids.. After this the day was pure chaos.. 9 two year olds is always a handful, but when they decide to be testy... hi yi yi yi ya....all my strings were pulled and im pretty sure they just about all broke. .. then came peaceful wonderful nap time... after that I felt much better, of course then it was the end of my shift too, so that helped.. Tomorrow I have the much coveted late shift-- not.. but nonetheless its gonna be FRIDAY and its payday which is always nice.. time to hit the tub then the pillow.. later

My Life Dilemma

se So I figured since Im gonna blog about this at some point or another I might as well do it now... it only took my slow interent 1/2 to let me get to this page..carazy thang, just about gave up on it. So these days I've been having a dilemma, I know alot of people have the same one as I do but still when its your life it just seems so much more problematic then when its someone elses.. heres my problem. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE! Im the kind of person that always needs a goal or something to work towards or aim for, something to give me purpose day to day...and I dont know what to do..
I'll be the very first person to say that Im discontent, and this isn't the first time I've found myself in this rut this year.
Earlier this year, especially this summer I was going crazy, I really wanted out of my job at daycare, and start something new in the fall.. so I started checking out the classifieds in the good ol Interlake Spectater, and one day I finally found one that I was excited about, so I applied right aways, and waited and waited.. One Friday when I got home from work my moms like "Sheila great news, they called and want an interview with you tomorrow!" I was like WOw.. i really didn't think they would, cuz my resume doesn't really support that kind of job. So the next day I got all dressed up and went for this interview, they really freaked me out, and I kinda felt like I probably wouldn't get the job cuz I figured there was probably more qualified pple that they were interviewing. But LOW AND BEHOLD, they called me the next day and told me I was the winner! and I was like WOW what a huge answer to prayer! so the next morning I walked into work at daycare and very soberly told my daycare boss (who is like the greatest boss) that I got a new job, but that it was just 3 days a week, so I wasn't ditching daycare completly just goign from full time to 2 days a week. And she was like OK, and took it all very well. So thus I began my new job at Quarry Physiotherapy-receptionist/physio-aide. It was a good time, The first day was like information overload, but from then on I kept learning something new everyday and was actually starting to catch on to the jyst of things. It felt crazy but I figured I'd catch onto everything eventually, the ladies there told me I didnt' have to know everything right aways, but I tried my best to remember EVERYTHING that I was being taught. It seemed to be going pretty good. About 2 weeks in, my boss calls me at work on Friday, and asks if he can call me the next day at home, and Im like okay.. here's my number...I get off the phone and Im like why would this guy want to call me at home, why wouldnt' he just talk to me here, but apparently he's like that. but right aways I went to the physiotherepist and was like 'he wants to call me at home...??? is he gonna fire me or what??' like i was just kinda freaked out why he couldn't talk to me there. He'd talked to me before at work, said i was doing really good, and answered the phones well bla bla bla... She assured me that he's weird like that sometimes, and the day went on and I didn't think nothing of it really until the next day, when he called... AND FIRED ME! well terminating was the word he used. (for not having learnt enough in 2 weeks [which was actually 6 days, cuz i wasnt there full time] he apologized alot, and I was like.. thats ok and I kept saying that it was ok, and then I felt the tears building up and had to get off the phone before he'd realize that I wasn't doing so good on this side of the line. I hung up the phone and my lil sister says jokingly..."you got fired?" and I'm like " Pretty much" and then I went to my room and cried for abit, my mom came in and asked me what happened etc etc etc. After abit I was like " Im ok, this is all ok, obviously this just isn't where God wants me, so he just shut the door, rather firmly but nonetheless shut the door." Yes it sucked, and it wasn't fair, Im pretty sure the reason he gave me wasn't the honest truth, I know I didn't do anything wrong. It just wasn't meant to be. Monday morning came, my daycare boss was really happy to welcome me back on full time, and away we went like nothing had ever happened. EXCEPT that I wasn't too thrilled to be back at daycare just when I was finally getting my foot OUT the door. OH and add a huge speeding ticket, and being stuck on a beach-2 meters away from the lake and having to get a tow truck to come help me out of my embarassing situation, and you can just guess how much I loved OCTOBER 2008! I just feel frusterated that its been a year since I came home from Australia.. and I told myself that I was only gonna work at daycare until I found something else... and now 12 months later.. IM Still HERE. Its not a horrible job, and I still love kids, it makes me look forward to that day when I can have my own babies to look after and raise properly, with morals and values, and DISICPLINE. Its just that I know that daycares not the place for me.. I quit there once already, in June 07 before I went to camp and Aus. but they asked me to coem back and I needed the job, plus I knew what I was doing.
People ask me now why I dont just go do something else, but I dont want to just go do something else, I dont want just a job, I want to do a job that Im passionate about, that I look forward to doing.. I have this motto. " If your not enjoying what your doing (jobwise) then its a waste of life" it sounds harsh and maybe just isn't realistic, but I dont want to be working just cuz I need the money, and hating it all day long, day after day year after year, it just seems like a waste, I really think its important that people find something that they enjoy doing day in and day out. Yes of course we're all gonna have bad days, but when just about everyday is a bad day, then you probably shouldnt' be there. So until I, with God's good help figure out a plan, or a goal or something to aim for it looks like I'll sit tight at daycare a lil longer.
MY OPTIONS:
1. Stay put, but start a photography course on the side, and hopefully get little side jobs taking pics for pple, weddings etc etc its an expensiveish course though, which always makes me hesitant, cuz when things cost lots of money I want it to be worth it in the long run.
2. Move to Australia.. my beloved 2nd homeland, which I love and think about so much everday and miss so incredibly much. Do something like being an aupair.. for 6 monthes, maybe even a year?? It costs even more but I could do it if I felt that its where God wanted me to be. ( Im just worried about what would happen when I'd come back, would I be in the same life rut that I am in now?)
3. Go to Australia.. just for a few weeks, just to visit all my friends there.. go to my roomates wedding in December?? my aunt is a travel agent, I could fly out there on the 8th, but she said theres no flights back before Christmas..) once again really pricey but probably would be worth it to see everybody again, cuz I miss my friends out there alot. But I really want to get God's go ahead before doing something big like that.

These are the 3 things that I've been thinking about the most lately, one day I'll be totally set on one of them, but then I'll sleep on it and be like nah.. and then I'll be totally set on another one, and then a few days later Im like.. but Im not sure if this is the smartest thing either.. Even now as I write this Im battling in my mind why I wouldn't just hop on a plane and head down under for some sunshine in December. I wish my bank account was bottomless, and that I didnt' hate spending money..
These are my thoughts of restlessness.. God bless you if you actually read through this whole thing.

Why I named it what I did...

The meaning of the name of my blog is as simple as this.... In the language of the Aussie's... sheila means girl/woman/chick etc.. (which got my name on many bathroom signs.) so we kinda had a joke out there about how I was the sheila named Sheila... so thats where it comes from.
I woke up this morning and tried out my voice, and it worked! so I'm no longer speechless. I had a pretty good day of work... my kiddo's had a hard time doing the listening thing... but amazingly my tolerance was at a pretty high level today.. must have to do with being sick. I also got a super random bloody nose, pretty exciting stuff. Im really happy that its a day off tomorrow for Rememberance Day; cuz i really enjoy staying in my bed in the morning. I took out the cathouse for my cat, and my sisters cat today, its one that our neighbor built for us, and has a lightbulb inside to keep it warm in the winter, so I brought it to the front of the house and plugged it in for them, put a few fresh rags in there to make it nice for them... my motive behind the service? to keep them off my car! its a pet peeve i've had for a long time... it drives me nuts when I get to my car and theres hundred of muddy footprints all over my hood, going up over my sunroof and then down my back window.. just makes me right ticked off. So hopefully they;ll like their warm house enough to stay off the warm cars. and if you see cat prints all over my car.. dont' mention it cuz believe me I"VE ALREADY NOTICED. my other pet peeve is stones in my shoes... like on the bottom of them, stuck in the tread part..makes me crazy. I bought batteries for my toothbrush today, so now my brush will brush with a lil more power. yay! and dont call me a loser for having a noisy spinbrush... i just wanted to see what they were like compared to normal ones... i actually kinda like it.. makes your whole face viberate lol.. kk well i think i've rambled enough for one evening... later

My First Blog Ever Written

So I finally got on this blogging bandwagon, not cuz anyone pressured me into it.. but because I often think in blogs, and Im told thats a sign of being a blogger. Im always like if I had a blog, I'd write this in it, I should have started it a year and a half ago, instead of now... but I can't go back in time, so the present is what you'll get. You're gonna get alot of random thoughts, cuz thats the way I think, I can talk alot about nothing much, I'll write 2 paragraphs for something I could say in 2 sentences, cuz I like detail. I like when other people give details, and I like to give details so that the person Im talking to REALLY understands what Im saying. The one thing that drives me nuts already about blogging, is that you have not a clue whose reading it, which can be a good thing I suppose, but nonetheless drives me nuts, so tell me if you read it k? please?
Im an interent addict.... Im addicted to Facebook, and checking my email, and myspace, and reading other peoples blogs, so I started this so that it will give me something new to do while checking on everything else. Currently I'm sick, I've had a cold for long enough now, and instead of it turning into a sinus infection like it normally does, it changed up abit and now I have larangitus... so I can't speaketh very well.. I feel actually not to bad.. but as soon as I try to talk hardly nothing comes out. Its fun for 2 minutes, but then is just sickening. I dont think it has anything to do with sitting outside for 3-4 hours at the freezing cold Bomber game yesterday. (Which was by the way, my first ever Bomber game, I took my dad for his birthday, and all his 4 brothers came too, twas a good time, although I have to admit my favorite part was when the planes flew over right before kick off, cuz I really love flying and I just want to be on them whenever I see them) I've had a pretty boring day today, It could have been more interesting if I would have been better, cuz there was a big youth/beavercreek thing that I could have gone to in town that was probably a blast, but I figured it would be hard to deal with if I couldn't converse properly with anyone. Anyway perhaps this is enough blabbing for one day? I shall return provided my internet doesnt' stop me as it has a tendancy of doing on this particular site, it took me 40 tries just to get this thing set up lol.. gotta love it.