Yeah Im still around...

<--I tried on my Grandma Reimer's wedding dress, and it fit, I actually really liked it. it made me feel abit like a flight attendant.

I guess its been awhile since I actually wrote on this thing... sure I open it up once and awhile but then I just dont feel like writing. so Im sure everyones given up on reading this already.. What did November hold?

*I got really sick for a week...with a high possibility that it was a strain of hInI.. I had all the symtoms. My favorite was the high fever that wouldnt go away even with advil and tylonal. One evening I just sat outside in the cold for 15 minutes hoping that would help.

*November 16, I FINALLY got a new job. However I wasn't totally pumped that it was another nanny one, excited to get a paycheck though.

*Stacey's bachlorette was this weekend. We had a good time, almost got kicked out of the hotel.. the hotel dude came and knocked on our door at 2:30am saying that they were getting complaints about us.. oops.. To say the least we were acting like 12 year old hyper girls.

*What beautiful weather, I even took the liberty of going rollerblading a couple times.

*Did I ever mention I have the coolest CnC? Just a totally awesome bunch of people, we went 80's bowling the other week and it was stellor. SO much backcombing and hairspray!

*Going to a friend of mine's baptism... If he can turn his life around.. then I reckon anybody could... It was awesome to see!

* I had a 7 day stint of good days.. like where I could actually say, its been a good week. Sounds small.. but its been a long time when I actually had a bunch of good days in a row..

This weeks gonna be a hectic one I think...I am only gonna work 2-3 days due to Ramona's funeral. (What an inspirational woman! Im so happy that she is finally free and healed, but my heart hurts for Earl and their family.) and rehearsal and prep for Stacey's wedding on Saturday...gonna be a busy one..

November 6, 2009

This was my day today, It consisted of 'surprise surprise', more job applications and having Subway for lunch cuz I didn't feel like having pasta.. again.

This isn't from today, but I carved pumpkings with the kids the other day and this is how mine turned out, nice and traditional.

The biggest thing I did today, or shall we say biggest in my mind, was a memorial so to say. I went to the airport and watched planes land and take off, and I watched the beautiful sunset. The reason behind my airport getaway, was that today marks the 2 year anniversary of coming home from Australia... I remember when I was there thinking ' Someday this will be years behind me, it will be just a memory' and time has flown by very very fast, and now it just seems like it was all just a dream.
But mostly I just can't wait to fly away again.

The sunset was just stunning, and kept changing, this picture doesn't really do justice.

In other news, Jeremiah, Jenna and I went bowling tonight, and I won , which was very good for my big woman ego.

Im planning to donate blood tomorrow with uncle Kevin bright and early, However I wont be surprised if my iron is out or if i faint afterwards. Or that my veins wont co-operate. I will however be very excited if it all works! cuz the one and only time I tried before it didn't. Must drink tons!

Breaking down

So I have been told and knew for the most part that I can handle stress and stressful situations well... but I have now learnt that I am human, and humans can fall apart.

It has been one month now that Ive just been working 2 days a week, and it sure hasn't been easy. Oh sure I've had many friday to monday long weekends and plus a day off in the middle of the week, which makes for lots of sleep ins, but its gets really old after the second week and down right frusterating by the 5th week. I find it interesting how when I compare this year to last year I find that my hardest months were the same. Especially October. October is officially my Annual bad luck with jobs Month. Last year I got fired in October, I got stuck on the beach and had to get towed out (fun story), and got a 280.00 speeding ticket all in a week. It was very bad.

Last week I had a horrible week, mostly the battle was in my head, but nonetheless it really sucked. Wednesday I figured I needed 'Jaymi time' Jaymi is one of my awesomest cousins and we are alike in many ways. Jaymi lives in Steinbach so I made a spontanious trip out there, had my Jaymi time and felt much better about living. The next morning I probably should have just stayed in bed..maybe called in sick or something, I was in such a wretched mood I probably could have hurt someone very badly. By the end of the work day, I was just fuming and boiling and knew I needed to get out of Winnipeg very quickly or I would surely murder someone. Its not like i had a specific reason for anything of this. But this is when I know that Im officially not keeping myself together, and Im no longer being good at handling my stresses. So I very promtly threw my stuff together and got out. After a Thursday to Monday long weekend, I have now cooled down some and am back in the city.

I will be finding out very soon if I got the nanny position I applied for, its sounding pretty positive. I know I wanted to expand my horizons get away from nannying and kids, but Im just getting desparate, and the paychecks better in nannying then at McDonalds. The biggest catch right now though is that I can get this job, which starts in the middle of November..and everything can be just peachy... until March, becuase come March my other house is done with me. But to start at a new house and only be there for 4 months seems like such a rip off to them, so then should I stay there till I go to camp for the summer? but then I'll be in the same shoes I am now.. trying to find a part time job to fill in the extra days.. This is just so stupid.. cuz when I make my decisions now, affects whats gonna happen next year. I started thinking this weekend maybe I'd just scrap this all and go be an aupair in Australia, so I went and checked that out.. and sure enough a family got back to me right aways wanting me to come and be their aupair (they have twin girl babies {I love twins}and live in sydney, are 2 minutes from the beach etc and pretty much the situation couldn't be more ideal).. i think its almost comical how I can't get a job in Wpg.. but how i could have one In Australia in January, but if I do that then Id really be giving up the whole missions trip idea.

So yeah pretty much my brain in like a pinball machine, with ideas, some sensible, some rash; and at this point I dont have any sense from God to show me what I should do, which is probably one of the most frusterating elements of all. I just dont know what to do, everythings just swarming like crazy....

On a positive note, Christy and I celebrated her 16th and my 21st at the Hecla Oasis Resort and Spa (A joint gift from our parents) on October 17-18.. We had a completly and wholly and wild and loud awesome time together. It was amazing, mostly because we made it amazing. We took a bucketload of pictures and put together halarious video coverage... now if ever I need a laugh I just watch one of our movies.. Here is a couple pictures from our weekend.. in random order

Getting ready to dash and dine! The next morning.. Definetly by far the best bed I ever slept in, you get to adjust how soft or firm it is by the press of a button, so fun! and Im definetly investing in feather pillows and blankets like that one day... or I'll just steal them from the hotels laundry room..
We did Fine Dining for dessert... mmm good. See video on Facebook


Christy and I

We got pedicures!