A step forward, that is IF anything comes of it

So the last couple days I've been thinking more about my 3rd option or whatever number it was.. going to Australia just for a few weeks, Mom was telling me she was concerned about my job, and how my boss would take it cuz it always seems like im always jumping in and out of work, so I figured the fair thing to do would be to at least warn my boss that IM THINKING of jumping to the other side of the world for December, I tried quite hard to emphasize that nothings happened with it so far, that im still just THINKING about it. but at least now she had a heads up, cuz if I get a plane ticket for a reasonable price, dude Im so outta this snow covered country. but its very much up to The Big Guy UPstairs, I kinda figure if the price is right then God's blessing it, but if its simply to much, then I'll just sigh and do my best to move on with life for the time being. I have a place to stay out there, in my head its half figured out already, its just gonna come down to the price, and a few phonecalls. On the reverse side of all my dreamin... Im really scared to go back, cuz Im scared that its gonna suck cuz I have such high expecations cuz the first time around it was like a movie, it went so good, it was the best 89 days of my life.. so we shall see. thats all i can do is just wait and see.. on a side note though my boss wants to know asap! cuz if i go then our new girl can start a month earlier, but she still has to be able to give her 2 weeks... and im thinking this whole idea is gonna come right down to the kincher.. i can totally see myself buying tickets, packing and leaving in a matter of a week type deal. but we shall see. right now my travel agent auntie is in Portugal for a week, so I have to wait till she comes home again... So we shall see folks! where this girlie's gonna spend Christmas, is it gonna be a white one, or a white sand and sparkling ocean one... theres a thought and a half