Summer made it

So summer finally came yay! so far its been filled with quality swimsuit time, Sophia's wedding, days at the Red River Ex with friends, fishing with Dad, and sleepyness... thats right never in my life have I been so tired from day to day to day, you'd think that there was something wrong with me. I think if I went to bed early enough to go with the early morning, I might cope better, but its not in my nature to go to bed when the suns still out! So I drag my feet all morning and wake up sometime in the afternoon, when the kids are all sleeping. Today I biked to work, it takes like 7 minutes opposed to the 2 minutes it takes to drive, and I had always said that my mon wed fri house I'd bike.. so yesterday i dragged my bike out. It was actually kinda nice, Im a sidewalk biker though, cuz A I dont have a helmet, ive never owned one in my lifetime, and B Im way to chicken to drive with the cars and would most definetly get killed. I just feel guilty going across the crosswalks, but whatever.

Yesterday was a planning day for me, I was in the mood to plan things, so I sat down with a pen paper and the internet, and planned my whole trip back to Australia via Hawaii, flights dates hotels the whole caboodle, got it priced out. Now I just need to go through with it... but I realize Im not just a lil scared Im SUPER scared that the second time around would seriously suck, cuz the first time was practically a movie, totally epic! Im also scared that my friends there would be different... like that we wouldn't actually be great friends anymore cuz life has gone on since... So I dunno now, either way I need a lil shove from God to get the ball rolling. Once I was done planning that I started planning my wedding.... a lil early I know, but with everyone around me getting married I think of ideas and I want to remember them when my time comes, so I started writing, it was really fun, I thought of colors and photographers, decorations, dresses and rings.. i know its subject to change though... when I get a man in the picture.

a tree makes my day

So Imagine the new roomates surprise when I hauled this awesome 9 foot big as palm tree into the house this evening!! I picked up the bamboo shades yesterday, the tree today, the torqoise walls were already in, and just helped inpire my tropical themed bedroom that much more, I love making rooms my own. This city bedroom.. feels like home.
Come visit me at my new pad! just off Pembina! in the Lake village. I love having friends over, just makes this all feel so much better. but dont worry mama, I'm still gonna show up on your doorstep on the weekends. I just might bring my tree with me, cuz I LOVE IT! now lets see if I can keep this bad boy alive.
p.s Good thing I have tinted windows as Im sure I would have gotton many a look as this palm tree was crammed into my car, all around my head, blocking windows etc. lol

Camera, Set, Background Action, Snot, Light up, Sniffle, Sneeze, Projectiles,home, party!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Just a quick note to say that since the last time I blogged, I've just really been trying to work on my attitude at work, towards work, towards the city, and just trying to put things back into Gods hands where it all belongs to begin with, and so this past week I had a lot better of a week. Not like all the drama melts away, Im just handling it a lil differently. Although I'll still admitt that I dont want to be a nanny forever, but in some ways I just dont think I want any job forever. I think I'll maybe always be abit of a job hopper, not in the sense that I dont know how to commit, but just more so that I tend to get restless after awhile, I dont like to look into the future and just see endless days at the same job, For now I'll blame this on just being young and still wanting to try many more things before I so call "settle down" I am actually hoping that one day I'll have a job that I love and am happy to do for years and years... until I have kids...lol
This weekend was a gooder. It started off wild and crazy with our 70s Dicso themed Bachlorette Party for Krista, in which we partied it up at the bowling ally, this is just a sneak preview as many of the pictures and happenings are not to be made public lol :D at least not at this point.

Note for the above picture: We were glow bowling, so i pulled my socks up high cuz they were so glowy and my pink scarf also glowed! ps. THOSE FEATHERS WENT EVERYWHERE. I left a trail of floating feathers wherever I tread.

We had a great party, it was a sweet time. I was really thinking I was gonna stay in the city this weekend ( Ive only stayed in the city one weekend since moving) But Saturday afternoon came and I was like welll.... I dont feel like moping around the apartment, I dont really feel like doing anything! except... you guessed it.. going home and chillin with my family.... at home. SO I threw a few things together and off I was to the country once again, I didn't tell my family I was coming, just kinda surprised them. My mom had said earlier this week that she really wished I would be home to help put in the garden. So much to her delight at my perfect timing, they were just getting ready to put it in when I pulled up. So I immdiately got put to work sowing the rows and rows of vegetables. I can't wait to go through picking fresh veggies off the plants. totally sweet as. Then Dad and I went fishing, (I bought a license a couple weeks ago, and since then every weekend we go fishing) out in the boonies, I had no faith in that ditch, we didn't see nothing, for forever, I just wanted to give up. all of sudden this fish jumped right by my line and I was like " DADDY" all freaked out that there was ACTUALLY a fish in this ditch and that I ALMOST caught it, and probably would have had I kept my mouth shut. Totally scared it off. Shortly thereafter my dad caught a huge one, and then a few minutes another one. SWEET. I however am one of the most unlucky fishers, and didn't get one. So my wait continutes to catch my FIRST FISH, thats right, I still do not have that picture of me holding up my FIRST fish. Then we went home to bed, as I could tell that I was coming down with a big doozer cold.

SUNDAY MORNING i got up bright and early, becuase it was movie day. I had been planning to be an extra on the Don Cherry Story movie for a couple weeks now, of course I had thought I'd find a bunch of pple who'd wanna come with me but nobody could.. SO I went at it alone, which was ok. It was being filmed in Selkirk arena, we were re-inacting a fight scene from a 1973 Hershy vs. Rochesters game. that Don Cherry was coaching and then later a hockey scene from the 50s when Cherry was actually playing. Thats right 2 Scenes. We spent so many hours doing the same thing over and over and over again, from different angles, etc. It was super cool at the beginning cuz you really see just how fake movies are, like the fights are totally choregraphed, everythings is completly planned out. right down to when to cheer, how loud to cheer, when to boo, how intense to boo, when to throw our popcorn and cups onto the ice. Note: the pple working on a set... wow. I'll never think the film industry is a breezy job again. Even things like the popcorn (which we werne't to eat) and the drinks.. we do the shot over and over again, just so that every things perfect, and they can piece together what they want. So every time they had to clean off the ice, pick up all the stuff and bring it back to the exact people who threw it, For example. I got picked to be a projecter, and I had the crinkled empty popcorn bag and the cup. (I was lucky i got 2 things) other people got a half full bag, or a full bag, but it was important that we got the same thing, so that it looked the same, it was amazing how much detail is put into everything. I now see why it takes a year or so to make a movie, cuz we spent 6 hours just on a short fight scene, and thats just the fight, thats not even the whole game, just the fight, and later it was just the body check, and later it was just the scuffle, and just when Don Cherry cross checks someone in front of the net, and just when they are all skating towards the other side, its all broken up into small pieces, which we do over and over and over again. It was cool though, oh and having Ace Burpee around all day was fun too. So awesome to hang with the guy thats the voice that takes me to work every morning. He's so funny, just by being himself. I was thinking all day of what I could ask him, so that I could actually have a conservation with him seeing as he was like 2 meters away from me for alot of it, but I couldn't really think of anything until after he left. I really want to know what time he has to get up in the morning to be on the radio alive and happy by 6 am. But as a side note, I was well into my doozer cold, and didn't have the spunk and energy I would have liked to have in order to speak to him, I didn't want attention drawn to my poor pitiful sniffling and sneezing self. So mostly I just stayed quiet for most of the day, met a few people. Talked to this lady who'd been married for 21 years, and her husband left her, just before she found out she has major cancer, she's had a bunch of surgeries, and now she has a tumor in her womb. I hope she makes it through, Now I can think of so many things i could have said to her, that would have been good witnessing, but of course I only think of these lines AFTer wards. I felt stupid telling her I was sick cuz my cold. I was like wow Sheila you dont even know what sick is compared to her.

I finally got up and left around 7:30, it had been a long enough day on the set for me. So I went home to bed. Im very happy I went, I was contemplating not going and just staying home with my family and trying to get better. But it was cool. I got to see Don Cherrys son, who looks a lil like him, I got to see what making a movie is really like, and what it involves, and I got to see Ace Burpee, which was fun for me. Cuz in my books he's pretty much a celebrity.

Today Im not any healthier.. Im really looking forward to being able to breathe normally again. Really really looking forward to it. Its when your sick that you realize how much you take being healthy for granted....

Week 9...almost 2 months down..

So its been what 9 weeks of living in the city? This is gonna be my piece of honesty blog. Im not convinced yet that I made the right decision to move to the city, not saying that its been all bad, but I just question it really often. (theres a reason why I come home EVERY weekend RIGHT after work on Friday.) I know that it was good for me to have the whole moving out experience, and yes im quite capable of supporting myself without my parents. Nannying is not as glamerous as it sounds, yeah when you break it down it has heaps of benefits compared to the next job, which are awesome, cuz really you do get to do anything you want when you want type deal, if u wanna be outside in the sun you can, if its cold and cruddy out then you can just sit inside, if you feel like being lazy you can do that, if you feel like getting out and going places, you just buckle the kids in and giver. But there are 2 biggies that get me wondering how long I could last.
A. Im so flippin lonely. Going 9 hours without having adults to talk to, is hard for me, some people really enjoy the alone time, but I can hardly hack it; cuz it gives me way way way to much time to think, to think about myself, and get frusterated and discouraged about my life, its happening way to much that Im just drive myself to feeling complete hopelessness. Its not cool.
B. The amount of pressure being the only person in charge, that was a beautiful thing about daycare, because you were a team of people, so if parents came in and got mad, it got directed at everybody cuz they dont actually know WHO to direct it at. Being a nanny, if things aren't right, theres only one person to point fingers at, of course if something goes right then you get the credit for that too. Nonetheless it keeps me in abit of a uptight mode, cuz Im always wondering if what Im doing is right. On a side note of this, its hard to know exactly what the parents allow and dont allow, because according to the kids "Mom always lets me" but I dont want to believe them cuz if she doesn't then IM gonna get in trouble for it, not the kid. So I find I have to be the big bad wolf ALOT, more to cover my own butt, so that I wont get in trouble for letting the kids have something that they shouldn't be having.

No doubt about it, all my kids aren't quite roses either, and I didn't expect them too, but I did think that after 2 months Id be a lil more bonded and sealed type thing. I got fired from one of my kids, they reckoned they didnt need a nanny and told me off, that was lovely coming from such a small mouth. Im pretty sure I had a pretty steller reply to that.
Im very thankful for my daycare experience, especially the learning how to cope, tolerate, IGNORE, and deal with flaming tempers or all kinds; and Im thankful for all my childcare experience, because Im learning how I am and am not gonna mother my children. I KNOW it will be different when they are my very own kids.But heres what I've often found- Stricter parents often have better behaved kids (Not stricter in the sense that they are always yelling at them, but just parents who set rules and teach there kids how to respect authority and have manners and dont give in to everything etc), where as lenient parents who let there kids rule the coop.... well and we wonder why things are the way they are.

Change of subject, Im having the hardest time deciding if I want to make my next Australia trip a month long, or if I want to move there. A month would be easier in the sense that it'd be just like a vacation, and Id pack all my highlights into 4 weeks.. but then when I come back home I'll be in the same shoes as I am now in the sense that I'll just really want to go back again. I feel like I almost need to go for a longer period just to "get it outta my system" plus I am young, and I am still super single, all my friends are married, engaged, or close to it- I really dont have a whole lot going on here thats holding me back. My only problem is that Im not sure what Id want to do there for a longer period of time, like what kinda job do I want. The only thing i really got going for me is heaps of childcare experience, I thought about maybe working in a daycare there.... anybody got any other ideas or place you know, or even like a volunteer tpye thing, or any oversea work programs? Ive kinda dismissed the aupair thing right now, just cuz im not sure If I could stand working and living in the same place, especially now that I know what nannying is like. I also have this looming fear in the back of my mind that going back to the same place just wouldn't be as good as the first time. Everything worked out so perfectly the first time around, and I know it wouldnt be like that again. To be honest Im scared that if I went back to Australia again it would suck. At the same time IM SO SICK OF ALWAYS TALKING ABOUT GOING BACK AND NOT ACTUALLY GETTING ANYWHERE WITH THE DECISION. but at this point I need to Gods help in deciding what to do and then figuring out which month, and then BOOKING those tickets, and sit back at look forward to it all! that is IF Gods cool with me going back, I really want to see my friends there again; and Im really ready for something fun and exciting in my life-I need something to look forward to...something that would include boarding a plane..?? :D yeah my foots ready to hit that gas when God gives me a green light.

On a positive note now, we got our bridesmaids dresses in for Sophias wedding,and I didn't have to get alterations which was nice. its interesting how for the most part I dont have to get alterations on bridal salon dresses which is odd for alot of people cuz they make those dresses with weird proportions so that often you have no choice but to get something taken in or whatever, but thanks to my weird figure it somehow just works. Now im working on the tan- today was step one, working in the greenhouse all day, got abit of color, now I just need to keep adding to it. Thank the Lord its the long weekend, I hope you are all enjoying it! All the best to those who are camping with the snow. :)

ohhh bummer

I just wrote out the coolest blog with tons of pictures and i spent the last 5 hours waiting for the video to load, and then i exited the screen before i hit POST! sorry you guys missed out on a gooder.

..Cuz you and I were meant to fly...My thoughts take flight

Who says flying over the ocean is boring its gorgeous, this is shortly after taking off from Sydney

Phillip Islands, just off the coast of OZ

Coming into Australia for the first time, early in the morning

Hawaii from the sky

Vancouver

Canadian Clouds

Plane being refueled in Honolulu, what a big beautiful aircraft

So I reckon I've become a once a week blogger.. not a daily blogger-sorry to disappoint. Right now I can hear a plane taking off.. and I want to be on it. The one thing I love about being in the city, is the planes, and living so close to the aiport gives me many chances to see planes shortly after they take off, or when they are coming in. This is hazordous at times, cuz sometimes i have my eyes on the sky when perhaps I should be looking at the road... or sorry street as you would call it here.

I loves planes, and am totally guilty of actually stopping whatever im doing and taking a moment to watch a plane take off until I can't see it anymore. One night it was like 1 in the morning and I wasn't sleeping yet, and I heard this huge one take off, and I just lay there in bliss. AirCanada is a personal favorite of mine, because its what took me to paradise, its not very often then I see one of them..but when I do, thats when my heart does the lil hurting thing- the longing thing, the "Im so jealous of whoevers sitting up in that plane right now flying someplace far away"

I love flying, and I absolutly loved my 22 hour flight to Australia, I had my nose pressed up against the window for the majority of that flight, even when it was dark I liked watching the light at the end of the wing blink. It was just a surreal experience. And for the first time I've uploaded my "landing in Aus" movie, not sure if it ever finished loading, so let me know if it doesn't work to watch.

If I had to desribe flying in one word it would be GLORIOUS!

In the sense that its just looks so heavenly on top of the clouds

So there you have it people, my sappy tribute to flight; and the day that Im holding an AirCanada boarding pass in one hand and my passport in the other is going to be beautiful beautiful day. Its gonna happen yet, when God gives me a green light.

Swine Flu?

So its a nice cloudy rainy day outside, and I am on my first sick day of my job, but its a weird sick, Yesterday afternoon my stomach kinda hurt but mostly I just felt very weak and my whole body just hurt and my skin was tingly, and Im gonna assume I had a fever. My sisters came out in the evening, we had a sister date twas fun, cept I still felt weak and tired. This morning when I woke up I figured I was feeling better but when I got up and walked around abit I still didn't feel right, so I went back to bed. Im feeling a lil bit better, but I can tell theres something not right.

1 month 1 year- Materialistic Much?

So yesterday, was 'my baby'' 's 1st birthday. My baby is the name of my car. To celebrate?? I got my windows tinted on Saturday night, I had been thinking about doing it for forever, and then past week I was just having a :( week mentally, and I needed something exciting.. So on Saturday I called Paint it Black, and made a last minute appt to get it done. It looks good. I know I could have done without it, because its one of those things thats 'Just for Looks' like I know theres "benefits" but really when it comes down to it its just a cosmetic thing. So a new phone and tinted windows in one week... I felt very materialistic. Wednesday marked 1 month of living in the city.
Now its Monday and I had a heap of phone questions bout my cell and contract and stuff, so Stace and I went to the mall and I hounded the guy with questions and he answered with answers I wanted to hear so that was good lol. Everything was a quick fix. Then seeing Stacey and I missed our bra shopping date last Monday when we got phones instead we checked that out today, yay for new bras; so fun. Then I went for a run again, which was good, everyday I got further and now I'm 3 minutes shy of my record I had at the gym, so its not taking to long to get whipped back into that kinda shape. Right now Im watching The Bachelor, my favorite show for now. Its a lil harder this season to predict whose he's gonna pick, last time I had it pretty well figured out by the time it came down to the final 4 or 5, but Im kinda up in the air, cuz I have 3 girls that I think could be good matches for him...
My ear feels abit better, it still pops alot, the pills i have to take for it taste and smell like wet dog, they are so gross. I'm gonna go back sometime this week to see if I get a a-ok or a heres more pills. or a lets do surgery on ur ruptured ear drum.. yeah no clue whats going on inside my head.

Blood and Puss

Remember how last week I was hoping someone would just shoot me in the ear? Well someone did, I got Ava one of my nanny kids too, with an air gun thing, so pretty much it just puffed a lil air in there, it was cute none the less, she was also shooting her pony in the eyes with it to make her feel better. ---Shooting my ear didnt heal it, last week was pain week, then came the weekend and it was like "lets just be deaf in one ear, and go in and out of being plugged type feeling, but it didn't hurt as much so that made me happier" none the less every morning my ear felt right funky, and so I was like man this is going on 3 weeks and it isn't really getting much better..

So today I woke up again with the feeling of a cotton ball stuck in my ear, and i poked my finger in my ear and there was nothing in it, so why did it feel exactly as though something was stuck in there?? Later on I did poke something in there to see what was in there, and sure enough this ear of mine was bleeding out. SO I called health links and the nurse is like "before this day is over you need to see a doctor" So I cancelled my run and hot date and flight and went and sat in a walk in clinic for a couple hours, met the nicest doctor, and she confirmed that YES indeed I have an ear infection, and that theres a possiblity that my ear drum is ruptured. SWEET. So she gave me drugs and said, Come back in a week, even if you feel like your better. and heaven forbid you ever stick anything in your ear, No q-tips! Oh and dont go swimming.

So my question is, what are Q tips really for?

ps. parts of this blog are a not truthful.. its not sweet that i have a possible hole in my eardrum and that it could be ruptured, and i didn't have a hot date or a flight unfortunetly. Although Im heading off to pack right now cuz Im making a trip home tomorrow!!!!! whooo!!!!!

Yesterday

Yesterday was what I would call a successful day.

I had a good day at work.

I went for a RUN.. Finally!

I cooked myself a proper full fledged supper

I went bra shopping with Stacey at the mall..

I didn't come home with a bra...

Instead we both came home with one of these. Typical girls? hmm maybe not so much.

My thoughts as of Week 4

I've been in the city for 4 weeks, but somehow that doesn't make it a month yet. Each week has gotton a lil easier. This week was different however as it was the first week that Thursday night I wasn't packing, and Friday after work I didn't go straight home fighting through hardcore rushhour. I came back to my apartment, my empty apartment, as my roomies went home for the weekend, and I would be jealous, except that its my own choice that Im staying here. I knew that at some point I needed to stay, cuz afterall I wanted to try out a new church, meet some people, get into a CnC etc. I dont have much plans for the weekend, If nothings happening, I'll go to one of my nanny kids birthday party tomorrow afternoon, (It would be interesting to be all together with these nanny parents, and "not being on the job") Sunday is one of Sophia's showers. Other then that this is all wide open- lonely much:S yeah i reckon so. Although as Im writing this my sister is tempting me with the possibility of her coming in tomorrow, that would make my sky a thousand stars brighter.
Today I went and met a girl, whose looking to fill her house with some new roomates.. she lives right close to my work, and the place is quite nice, its a duplex, 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, 3 story. Even though your renting you can PAINT THE WALLS lol. So Im gonna think on that, its a very good option.FOR SURe.
anyway Im gonna put my lonely lil self on the couch and watch a movie. maybe eat the other half of my bunny.. or maybe not.
I`ve had a wicked wicked earache for all of this week as abit of last week too.. Im staying drugged up on extra strength tylonal. I dont even know how to go abouts seeing a doctor in Winnipeg, so I haven`t even tried. Pretty much i just wanna blast my ear off, it would probably hurt the same.. well ok so maybe not, it just really hurts, and Im sick of it hurting.Please pray for my ear.
New church on Sunday. Time to meet some new fish (question mark, seeing as my keyboard is wonked out)
Highlight of the week-My time with my extended family, I had dinner and movie with my veery special Auntie Trudy on Wedneday (also my awesome travel agent) and Thursday I was at Kevin and Elivras, for amazing supper. mmm good. As of right now.. toodles!
ps. I actually really do wish I was at home right now.

Happy Easter

This weekend I've been finding it hard to make the connection that Jesus died for ME, that he loves ME, and that He saved ME. Like the thought overall is like wow, but its just not sinking into my heart, I dunno what my problem is, maybe I need to ponder it more or something, maybe I've been too distracted, cuz its just not hitting home for me, and I want/need it too....