1 month 1 year- Materialistic Much?

So yesterday, was 'my baby'' 's 1st birthday. My baby is the name of my car. To celebrate?? I got my windows tinted on Saturday night, I had been thinking about doing it for forever, and then past week I was just having a :( week mentally, and I needed something exciting.. So on Saturday I called Paint it Black, and made a last minute appt to get it done. It looks good. I know I could have done without it, because its one of those things thats 'Just for Looks' like I know theres "benefits" but really when it comes down to it its just a cosmetic thing. So a new phone and tinted windows in one week... I felt very materialistic. Wednesday marked 1 month of living in the city.
Now its Monday and I had a heap of phone questions bout my cell and contract and stuff, so Stace and I went to the mall and I hounded the guy with questions and he answered with answers I wanted to hear so that was good lol. Everything was a quick fix. Then seeing Stacey and I missed our bra shopping date last Monday when we got phones instead we checked that out today, yay for new bras; so fun. Then I went for a run again, which was good, everyday I got further and now I'm 3 minutes shy of my record I had at the gym, so its not taking to long to get whipped back into that kinda shape. Right now Im watching The Bachelor, my favorite show for now. Its a lil harder this season to predict whose he's gonna pick, last time I had it pretty well figured out by the time it came down to the final 4 or 5, but Im kinda up in the air, cuz I have 3 girls that I think could be good matches for him...
My ear feels abit better, it still pops alot, the pills i have to take for it taste and smell like wet dog, they are so gross. I'm gonna go back sometime this week to see if I get a a-ok or a heres more pills. or a lets do surgery on ur ruptured ear drum.. yeah no clue whats going on inside my head.

Blood and Puss

Remember how last week I was hoping someone would just shoot me in the ear? Well someone did, I got Ava one of my nanny kids too, with an air gun thing, so pretty much it just puffed a lil air in there, it was cute none the less, she was also shooting her pony in the eyes with it to make her feel better. ---Shooting my ear didnt heal it, last week was pain week, then came the weekend and it was like "lets just be deaf in one ear, and go in and out of being plugged type feeling, but it didn't hurt as much so that made me happier" none the less every morning my ear felt right funky, and so I was like man this is going on 3 weeks and it isn't really getting much better..

So today I woke up again with the feeling of a cotton ball stuck in my ear, and i poked my finger in my ear and there was nothing in it, so why did it feel exactly as though something was stuck in there?? Later on I did poke something in there to see what was in there, and sure enough this ear of mine was bleeding out. SO I called health links and the nurse is like "before this day is over you need to see a doctor" So I cancelled my run and hot date and flight and went and sat in a walk in clinic for a couple hours, met the nicest doctor, and she confirmed that YES indeed I have an ear infection, and that theres a possiblity that my ear drum is ruptured. SWEET. So she gave me drugs and said, Come back in a week, even if you feel like your better. and heaven forbid you ever stick anything in your ear, No q-tips! Oh and dont go swimming.

So my question is, what are Q tips really for?

ps. parts of this blog are a not truthful.. its not sweet that i have a possible hole in my eardrum and that it could be ruptured, and i didn't have a hot date or a flight unfortunetly. Although Im heading off to pack right now cuz Im making a trip home tomorrow!!!!! whooo!!!!!

Yesterday

Yesterday was what I would call a successful day.

I had a good day at work.

I went for a RUN.. Finally!

I cooked myself a proper full fledged supper

I went bra shopping with Stacey at the mall..

I didn't come home with a bra...

Instead we both came home with one of these. Typical girls? hmm maybe not so much.

My thoughts as of Week 4

I've been in the city for 4 weeks, but somehow that doesn't make it a month yet. Each week has gotton a lil easier. This week was different however as it was the first week that Thursday night I wasn't packing, and Friday after work I didn't go straight home fighting through hardcore rushhour. I came back to my apartment, my empty apartment, as my roomies went home for the weekend, and I would be jealous, except that its my own choice that Im staying here. I knew that at some point I needed to stay, cuz afterall I wanted to try out a new church, meet some people, get into a CnC etc. I dont have much plans for the weekend, If nothings happening, I'll go to one of my nanny kids birthday party tomorrow afternoon, (It would be interesting to be all together with these nanny parents, and "not being on the job") Sunday is one of Sophia's showers. Other then that this is all wide open- lonely much:S yeah i reckon so. Although as Im writing this my sister is tempting me with the possibility of her coming in tomorrow, that would make my sky a thousand stars brighter.
Today I went and met a girl, whose looking to fill her house with some new roomates.. she lives right close to my work, and the place is quite nice, its a duplex, 3 bedrooms, 2 bathrooms, 3 story. Even though your renting you can PAINT THE WALLS lol. So Im gonna think on that, its a very good option.FOR SURe.
anyway Im gonna put my lonely lil self on the couch and watch a movie. maybe eat the other half of my bunny.. or maybe not.
I`ve had a wicked wicked earache for all of this week as abit of last week too.. Im staying drugged up on extra strength tylonal. I dont even know how to go abouts seeing a doctor in Winnipeg, so I haven`t even tried. Pretty much i just wanna blast my ear off, it would probably hurt the same.. well ok so maybe not, it just really hurts, and Im sick of it hurting.Please pray for my ear.
New church on Sunday. Time to meet some new fish (question mark, seeing as my keyboard is wonked out)
Highlight of the week-My time with my extended family, I had dinner and movie with my veery special Auntie Trudy on Wedneday (also my awesome travel agent) and Thursday I was at Kevin and Elivras, for amazing supper. mmm good. As of right now.. toodles!
ps. I actually really do wish I was at home right now.

Happy Easter

This weekend I've been finding it hard to make the connection that Jesus died for ME, that he loves ME, and that He saved ME. Like the thought overall is like wow, but its just not sinking into my heart, I dunno what my problem is, maybe I need to ponder it more or something, maybe I've been too distracted, cuz its just not hitting home for me, and I want/need it too....

If you live in an Apartment Building, you MUST do this

RUN AS FAST AS YOU CAN UP AND DOWN THE HALLS!!!!!! I just got back from doing so, Oh and you have to be in socks, cuz then its perfectly quiet, just let the wind rip through your hair!!! It was so exillerating, Im gonna do it more often. Totally awesome!
speaking of apartments, Summerland was on fire today. (see previous blog) I could see it from my nanny house, the smoke coming out the top, there was a lady on her balcony yelling for help, that was kinda eerie, all you can do is watch really. There was TONS of sirens, fire trucks ambulances and heaps of cops everywhere, they blocked off the whole neighborhood pretty much, so my boss couldnt even get in for like an hour, so I worked late today, thankfully I was able to get out onto Pembina, but it was super plugged. Yes twas interesting!
Everybody go run down your hallway!

Week number 2 part 2 my rant

Ok so on Tuesday we were all honky doory, but once again, by Friday, I was like get me outta the city I need some wide open spaces. I developed some severe road rage by the end of the week, if I was driving a beater I could have purposely smoked into some pple. I just got so fed up with the driving in the city, constantly going from brake to gas to brake to gas,, your foot actually hurts after awhile, and people are constantly almost hitting you, like all the time your slamming your brakes cuz pple are being dumb. I love it how when someone almost hits you by cutting your right off and then gives u this sweet apologetic wave in their rearview mirror,.. yeah no problem, by all means, feel free to almost hit me all the time. hence why today I promtly went to go switch over my car insuarance so that it will be ok for the city. The jobs going alright its not all glam but it has its moments of great brightness, I had a pretty lax week. The highlight was definetly the kingsize temper tantrums at McDonalds, I just smile now when I think of it. Baby in one arm, parkas, diaper bag, purse in the other, 1 child playing, and one having a serious serious meltdown. Ive never felt so much like a mom in my life, as I did when I took them to McDs. cuz of course in a public place like that everyone assumes u are the mom. Long story short, Im as stubborn as a rock and I dont mind if the kid wants to scream at the top of there lungs in a public place, I wont give in. Im far far to stubborn. (I also had un imaginable bucket loads of patience this day which helped alot) In the end I had them all dressed up and out to the car in no time. I was pretty pleased with how well I handled it. We might even do it again sometime. Interesting fact: I wasn't embarrassed. Ive heard lots about how its embarrassing when your child throws a massive temper tantrum in a public place, but I think when your the nanny and not actually the mom, it makes a difference. I felt pretty calm about it. Sure I wasn't happy, and the child went straight to bed as soon as we got home, but I felt like I had handled it alright. I think a big saving grace was how calm baby was, if there was more then one child having tears, then I may have lost my mind a lil sooner.but yes that was my highlight. Oh and the other highlight was finding a big ol parking ticket on my car at 630 that morning, it was just bound to be a great day!!!! hence why I ate almost a whole white chocolate easter bunny and strawberry milk while watching Bride Wars in cheap seats with Krista, which was probably my realistic highlight. So this is my rant. Hope you enjoyed. I believe my attitude towards the city still has a ways to go.

2nd week

Im alot more adjusted to this whole city thing this week. Feels abit more like life. Ironed out some wrinkles. Tis much better now.

Highlight of my day? finding out that Summerland isn't just for old people, I called them today, and they said they have young people too. For those of you who have no clue what Im talking about, theres an apartment building, a huge one, with an atrium and indoor pool, Wes and Bonnie lived here when they got married, and ever since then it stuck in my mind as being so beautiful, walking through the indoor jungle.. and when I found out now that its righ close to where Im working on Pembina, I was like I want to live there! and the rent is half reasonable when you have roomates to share it with, and i can see if from the back yard of one of my nanny houses!!!!!!! perfect location for the job!!! so maybe this will be my next home :) heres a picture of it for ya'all to get a good idea of what it looks like from the outside, I want to be on the top floor!!!

So I did make it through my first week living in the city. It definetly had its ups and downs,
Tuesday would of been one of the downs and you may have been able to tell from my blog. Im pretty sure that all the things that could have gone wrong this week did, and so now hopefully thats all behind me; and from now on things should get a lil easier... HOPEfully. Heres my recap: MOnday, went pretty good, Tuesday was the day that I was just hating the city, I just wasn't believing that I made the right decision at all. Then we got the snow storm, which is like my driving nightmare, its one things to be spinning and sliding out in the country, but when your trying to get from place to place in the city, with tons of vehicles around you, theres no room to be sliding around.
Thursday... oh Thursday. Worst morning ever, I had left for work extra early cuz of the bad roads, and so that was alright,I living on Ness and I have to drive to Pembina, but after awhile I was like wow its taking me a long time to get to work today, So I started rehearsing my late speech in my head as I usually do when I feel like I might not make it on time.(At least in the country if your running behind you just step on it and make up for it that way and then your fine lol) not so much in the city. So Im driving and driving and driving, and all of a sudden there in front of me is a Sears sign, meaning that I had officially reached ST VITAL MALL. I was like "You have GOT TO BE kidding me" I missed Pembina, not by a little bit but by a long shot. Driving past Pembina without noticing it is like driving past the Effiel Tower and not seeing it. I have never been so mad at myself in my life. I was 20 minutes LATE. and you know what the icing on the cake is? It was my bosses FIRST day back to work, so because I was 20 minutes late, it made her 2o minutes late, ON HER FIRST Day!!! the stupid thing is is that its not like I didn't know where I was going, I'm totally famlier with that area and Pembina and so on, i'd been doing it all week to. It royally baffles me how I could go past all the huge signs, and under the bridge without noticing. Im still kicking myself, but now its better cuz my boss was super good about it, wasn't ticked and was super forgiving. Friday was good day, I had my bags packed and in my car so RIGHT after work I came home, it was so beautiful getting out of the city, to see Winnipeg's skyline behind me and wide open highway in front of me, it was good. I'll leave today after supper to go back, Im feeling much better about it all already. I know I may never like being a city girl, but as long as my attitude is ok, I think the whole thing has some potential to be a really good experience, I can't wait till its nicer outside cuz then I wanna take the kids out more, hopefully the days will go by a lil faster then too. I do still find them long and a lil lonely, It still is really hard not to have adults to talk to through out the day. So when I get back to the apartment Stacey and Alyssa usually get a big ear ful from me just cuz Im so glad to talk! lol They are great roomates! I'll try to get my yakking under control though lol

Note to city people. Call me, lets do something. I need a social life.

I just got back from a good ol long run with my sister, my lungs are burning, Im not used to running in the great outdoors, but its so nice to take in all the countryness before I head back.
Im still thinking about joining a gym in the city, cuz I feel or should I say my body feels suckish after just quitting it. I passed my Riverton gym membership over to my co-worker Debbie.Anybody know good gyms in the city, that dont cost a million bucks to join?

What in the name of this land am I doing here?!?!?!

pretty much the title sums up everything. I dont know what Im doing here.
I'd write more, but then I'll cry. We'll jsut leave it at it was a long and lonely day, add drizzle to that and it completes it, and I dont like the city. The jobs fine (although lonely with no adults to talk to for 9 hours), and I sure can't complain about the apartment, its just the whole thing as a whole. I just dont know if I made the right decision, but I really felt that God wanted me to do this. He better have a mighty good plan in mind....

Last Days

I've been doing pretty good at not thinking that this weekend Im moving... but the fact that tomorrow is my last day at daycare has the potential to make me teary eyed. I doubt i will actually shed tears but in my heart I will..I hate goodbyes, especially ones where your not sure when you'll be seeing kids again. :( Im gonna go back to trying not to think about it.
I went snowmobiling for the first time this winter today, was good to sneak that in before the winter was over, thanks Jeff for not doing your homework to take us. Twas a nice time. Well I should get some sleep.. as Im sure I have interesting days ahead of me.

The Record is Broken

Today was a great day,
work was good, and then afterwards I went and got my hair colored and cut, totally awesome, It feels and looks so good. Im always so shy about my tresses when I go to the hairdresser cuz I usually wait till my hair is pretty cruddy before I go, but she did say my hair was pretty healthy so I was like Thank you! I haven't taken pictures of it to put on here, but its dark! the color was called mocha I think, its super dark brown and when its in the light its all coppery.
After that I went to the gym, and as much as I didn't wanna get all sweaty with my doo, I was like I think its time I give my goal a go. So with my new brown locks, a lil prayer, 2 chocolate eggs for my poor hungry tummy, and no water haha, and cranked music, I ran and ran and ran and ran.. and ran somemore, 5 minutes came and went, then 10.... then 13...then 17...then 20....at this point my body was starting to feel hardcore suckish,..then 22...now my ribs felt like they were cracking...then 25.. my old record.. whoo!...then 29...1 minute left...30! this is when i was like WHOO!!! after that I had the hugest burst of energy. So I ran till 31.5 minutes.. my new bright and shining record, thats all i wanted to get too. 3.2 MILES! I was so flipping proud of myself, it doesn't seem like very far in someways, but when I think that i ran that., no slowing down and walking when it got tough, Im super happy. and thats the story of my reached goal, 3 miles,1/2 an hour, 400 Calories.
In other news, I have 3 days left at daycare, and unlike the last time I quit, Im pretty sad about it this time, I think cuz Im super attached to some of my lil bubs there, and it'll be hard leaving, and knowing that the next time I see them, if that even happens, they probably wont even remember who I am. Sucks. I hope it'll work out that I can come back and work a day here or there if Id ever have a day off with nannying.
5 days till the move, I've now figured that Im not gonna move till Sunday, pretty much Im procrastinating, Im gonna do all my packing and organizing on Saturday and then go Sunday. I think that should work out nicely. Im still a lil mleh about the move, but I think Im gonna be ok.